Random : Dear, No One

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Maan, udah menahun ga update blog, tiba-tiba ketabrak keinginan buat nge post satuuu aja posting lirik lagu yang bikin saya ketabrak ini. huhu, anyway, tujuannya cuma ngepos lirik kok. Lagu Dear No One by Tori Kelly bener bener nge jlep, pas banget sama apa yang saya rasain. So, Dear, No One, this post is for you as well as the lyrics from that song ๐Ÿ™‚

Dear No One by Tori Kelly

I like being independent
Not so much of an investment
No one to tell me what to do
I like being by myself
Don’t gotta entertain anybody else
No one to answer to

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you’re out there I’d swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

I don’t really like big crowds
I tend to shut people out
I like my space, yeah
But I’d love to have a soul mate
And God’ll give him to me someday
And I know it’ll be worth the wait

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

Dear No One…

you guys.

you!

yes you guys.

as time flies, I didn’t notice until now you guys are โค

maybe it’s because I was too busy whining or comparing.

but time discovered everything that was covered by dust, every seconds, every minutes, every hours,ย one by one.

thus sometimes, people realized something a little bit later than they should realize.

but, in the end,ย  they realized it anyway.

and me too.

and now I just realized, my affection towards you guys are grew bigger each day ๐Ÿ™‚

I meant it. sincerely. My affection to you guys are bigger than usual now.

and I was too stupid to ignore your kindness to me and I was too busy comparing too.

anyway, i won’t do that anymore.

Because every little things in the world are unique, and none of them deserves to be compared with something that completely different from them.

I love you guys.

sincerely from my heart and my brain โค

p.s : have a guess in your mind, these ‘guys’ referred to whom. kay ? ๐Ÿ˜‰

You are a gift …

You are a gift from Allah swt to your family.
If you weren’t there. Nothing would be the same.
No one could play your role better than yourself.
Be thankful to Allah swt because you are alive.

a thought for tonight, for me who’s going to hit 21 years old by the day after tomorrow.

for me who is always detest November and the day I was born. I should stop being like that, shouldn’t I?

whateverr!

So..

This evening, someone called me and we had a long convos. At first I was very happy with the convos until that someone (I will refer it as “J” ) brought up some topic I hate the most. it’s about one of my family member. The topic I want to get rid the most, and J brought it up. I am not hating J for it. I hate myself because I couldnt say something to defend. Not because I dont believe my family. It’s because I couldn’t talk back to J.

Basically, this topic woke up the grudge I’ve been trying to hold up till now.ย  I know, holding any grudge is no good. Mom nags me a lot about holding a grudge and trying to take an avenge are not good and only destroying myself. Holding grudges and want to take avenge are the nature of snakes. Mom said, if I still holding on to them, then I am as low as snake.

First thing that came up on my mind when me and J were talking is planning a revenge. I know I don’t have any power right now, but who knows what will happen in next few years? Yeah, I am as low as snake. it’s not the first time J talk bad about my family member. I am not blaming J. I am blaming myself for not standing in the front to defend my family.

Not long after I ended my convos with J, mom called me. and something slapped me on my face.

Allah swt won’t allow me to degrade myself as low as snake. That’s why Allah makes my mom called me right after I ended my convos with J, to wake me up and pull me out of my anger.

Allah has a plan for me and my family. Everything that happens in this world are not happening w/o Allah’s will.

Whatever story that J could come up with, it’s up to J. I will not hear anything bad about my family anymore. and I won’t believe it.

Yeah.

J can believe what J wanna believe.

and me too!

I just wanna believe what I want to believe. And I wanna see what I am willing to see. If we don’t believe our family member, then who would believe them and help them? I know my family that anybody else in this world. And I am more than willing to die or sacrifice myself for my family.

You can say whatever you want but Allah swt never sleeps. Only Allah and ourselves know better.

I might sound annoying, rude or bad and whiny, but whatever. i don’t live in this world only to hear about what people think about me and become what they want me to.

A Mere Thought, completely random

Time flies fast.

I ever read somewhere about the 7 minutes when we are dying. Disitu dikatakan kalo pas sakratul maut, dalam 7 menit, seseorang bakalan keinget lagi segala sesuatu that ever happened in their life, whether it’s about sadness, hatred, madness, hapiness, everything. Jadi yang bikin merinding itu ada kalimat penutup yang bertanya apakah sebenernya hidup kita ini sebenernya cuma the amazing 7 minutes yang kita alami pas dying itu? Karena life is very short, that’s why yang nulis artikel itu bikin pertanyaan kayak gitu di akhir artikelnya.

Anyway, ngomongin tentang kematian dan kehidupan, my family is in mourning these days because we lost our family member. Suami dari tante ku baru aja menghembuskan napas terakhirnya hari jumat september lalu di RS di pekanbaru. H passed away after suffering for about two days. umur emang ga ada yang tau selain Allah swt. One minute we laugh hard, another minutes? who would knows what will happen? kali aja bakalan ada pesawat jatoh diatap rumah pas lagi asik-asiknya ngorok, atau kali aja pas lagi jalan santai, ada mobil truk yang melenceng trus nabrak, atau tsunami atau gempa bumi or maybe when you sleep, Allah calls you.

Life’s short. spent it wisely.

Hidup manusia itu ibarat jarak antara adzan sama iqamat.

Way too short.

Dapet berita mengenai om aku itu ngebuat aku bener bener berfikir.

life…